Two Year Surgiversary

Yesterday (December 19) marked the two year "surgiversary" of my RNY. Yes, just two years ago I was under the knife and feeling like this was a big mistake! My first few days after surgery were not good. I had lots of pain and lots of (in my eyes) unexplained issues. Spent an extra night in the hospital, which didn't make me happy. Not to mention the fact that I was released just two days before Christmas. That year all I could do was smell the delicious foods my family created for our big festivities. I also wore out easily and didn't stay as long as I'd like to.

Flash forward two years: I am moving about a lot easier, able to exercise and able to eat most anything I want (except the dreaded "real" ice cream and cheesecake). This is both good and bad. I am able to exercise, but still need to make myself DO IT. I am able to eat most anything, but still need the willpower to say NO to things I know I shouldn't. And I have to admit, I am having problems in both areas.

I have gained a little over 10 pounds this Fall. A trend I am not happy about. I don't want to place blame, but I think it's a combination of boredom and stress. Still no job on the horizon for me, so I will most likely be going back to school in January. While it is a great opportunity, I am concerned that I won't be able to keep up with the 4 classes I've signed up for - along with homework. In order to meet the school demands, I have had to reduce my volunteer work. Volunteering is something that brings me joy and gives my life meaning. I worry about what dropping it will do for my well being.

All that being said, the decision to have surgery was one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. I do not regret it one bit. I just need to get myself back to the good mental place that I was a couple years ago. I need to remember the good habits that helped me lose the weight so that I can keep it off (and hopefully lose more). I need to remember that I am worth it and the hard work is worth it. So going to give myself a swift kick in the butt and restart this machine!

Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas and a happy and healthy new year!